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Originally Posted by Ms. Meander
Congratulations to all of the non-smokers and anyone even thinking of quitting!
I have been struggling to quit for years. There have been a couple times I have quit for a while but have always gone back to it in times of stress. It is the last great (destructive/unhealthy) coping mechanism I have left. Had.
I last smoked over 60 hours ago. My official quit date being the 24th. I have been reluctant to post about it because I have been feeling like a miserable wretch and I have this thing about keeping my misery largely to myself.
I have just awaken at 4am in a pool of sweat. My sleep has been out of whack these few days and I feel like I have been in a haze. I am more sensitive than usual, irritable and weepy. But I keep reminding myself WHY I am doing this. There are of course the myriad of health reasons which are the facts behind the motivation but when it comes down to that moment when I am struggling through a craving, I have to keep telling myself that I WANT this.
Also, in the past year I have made several attempts. The first few days/week are absolutely the hardest part and I keep putting myself through this torture only to pick up the smokes again, setting myself up to have to go through it again in the future. I am done with that. I am done with smoking. I am done torturing myself. I am done poisoning myself. And soon, I will be through this withdrawal and I will be free.
But for the moment, I am still a wretched mess.
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Keep it up! Keep going!
You have been through the withdrawal before, so you know that it ends...then after getting over that main hump, it is mostly psychological.
You CAN do it. You WILL do it!
And freedom is exactly the right word. I had never seen it as freedom before until a few months after I had quit, but that is SO correct.
Keep posting for support!