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Leigh · 06-14-2011, 11:15 PM

I just finished having a shower and even with how little time it took to finish, I had been doing alot of thinking about My future and where I want it to go. As of right now I am 31 years old and other than having My G.E.D, I don't feel that I have much to show for it. I'm not currently working (though I have a couple of reasons for this right now), I don't have My own place and I'm not as independant as I would like to be. I realize that I am responsible for this however I really came to realize why I lack those things ~ I've been spending most of My adult life sabotaging My own need to be happy.

Having dealt with being constantly teased and tormented as a kid for My weight problems, suffering from depression and panic/anxiety attacks as well as a father who has no problem reminding Me constantly of what is wrong with Me as a person, I simply never thought that I deserved to be happy. I've had people tell Me that I deserve it, however I never really wanted to listen to that ~ until now. I've finally begun to really look into My soul and try to figure out what it is that I want ........ what is going to make Me happy? What are My goals, wants, needs? Where do I see Myself in 5 years? 10 years? This new found knowledge, and sense of empowerment, is really beginning to change My way of thinking.

I can see a very bright future for Myself, as long as I stick to going after what I want then I will succeed in being happy :-)

06-14-2011, 11:15 PM	#6078
Leigh Infamous Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Preferred Pronoun?: She, Her, etc Relationship Status: Single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 7,767 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 9,029 Thanked 13,024 Times in 4,784 Posts Rep Power: 21474859	I just finished having a shower and even with how little time it took to finish, I had been doing alot of thinking about My future and where I want it to go. As of right now I am 31 years old and other than having My G.E.D, I don't feel that I have much to show for it. I'm not currently working (though I have a couple of reasons for this right now), I don't have My own place and I'm not as independant as I would like to be. I realize that I am responsible for this however I really came to realize why I lack those things ~ I've been spending most of My adult life sabotaging My own need to be happy. Having dealt with being constantly teased and tormented as a kid for My weight problems, suffering from depression and panic/anxiety attacks as well as a father who has no problem reminding Me constantly of what is wrong with Me as a person, I simply never thought that I deserved to be happy. I've had people tell Me that I deserve it, however I never really wanted to listen to that ~ until now. I've finally begun to really look into My soul and try to figure out what it is that I want ........ what is going to make Me happy? What are My goals, wants, needs? Where do I see Myself in 5 years? 10 years? This new found knowledge, and sense of empowerment, is really beginning to change My way of thinking. I can see a very bright future for Myself, as long as I stick to going after what I want then I will succeed in being happy :-) __________________ "When you fall off the wagon ... clutch the sides of it until you get a better grip!"