First I want to say that I do not ever mean to offend anyone at any time that is not who I am at all. My comment about "fat girls" is harsh and maybe I should have worded it differently however the horse world is sadly that harsh.
I suppose I don't have the needed self confidence to go out there at my size and rock the horse world and make the judges wake up and notice that anyone can do this sport. There are plenty of women who are not tiny that do go out there and make it happen it isn't impossible however points are knocked off for appearance. Something I did not know until I saw my mothers score care who is a size 0. Yup she is tiny and tall and beautiful.
I have a small build except for my hips. God played a great joke by giving me child bearing hips and then made it impossible for me to have children. (that is a whole story of its own). So a size 2 is do able it will just take a lot of hard work and commitment but I know it is possible.
What happens if I don't make it to a size 2 then I smile and hold my head up high and go into the show pen and show them that even at an 8 it's okay I still look great. I just wish I had what it takes to go in right now but for my own self I don't. I would feel out of place like everyone is staring at me and making those comments that hurt the most.
So my journey begins and again I meant no disrespect to anyone at anytime. I am here to support you as well as take in the support from you.
So lets go kick some booty.
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