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Originally Posted by EzeeTiger
I had a really BAD week. I just felt pretty sick of counting points to be honest so on some days I didn't even bother to eat my points for the days and then on other days I ate far too much of the wrong things. Out of town visitors led to two dinners out and I didn't even really try to watch it. Then Sunday was Comic-Con and I ate bad snacks. Wednesday we had tickets to the Indigo Girls so before we went I ate badly, too much bread and had also had big cocktail. Then I was just sort of in the screw it mode the rest of the week. I skipped working out twice as well because I was so tired from staying up waaaay past my bedtime.
On the positive side I did say no to the desserts at work this week as there was two days were the office was overflowing with cakes and cookies. I chose not to partake in any of it.
All in all at my weigh in yesterday I had gained 2oz. Not a lot but it is time for a reality check about how much I really want this. I know I do want my old body back but am I really wiling to do the work? I believe I am so I am getting back on track before the wheels come off the track completely.
It's not easy doing this! UGH!
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Go Easy, Ezee!
Your bad week with dinners out and 2 less workouts only resulted in a 2oz gain - That's pretty incredible! We're all going to have gains and weeks where we say "fuck it" and get buckwild with alcohol, carbs, meat, etc. My week for that will come and I'll be in here talking about it when it does.
I get what you are saying about the mentality of "fuck it" too. It's hard to make that U-turn and walk it back with yourself. For me, it's a lot like going back to the neighborhood where I know I can get my drugs and being reluctant to just leave without the fix. My "fix" is eating too much, feeling full to popping, and then sitting around and doing some unhealthy self-loathing where I tell myself I'm an unworthy sloppy fat ass who can't control herself and blah blah blah. Because then? I talk myself into getting the food/fix and I still get to have my feelings of being unworthy/shame (my other "fix"). It's a "win/win" with the full tummy and bad feelings because it's what I know! (and am working to unlearn)
You are here and present and being accountable to yourself. That's enough for now. <3