[foxyshaman]

BIGGO SIGH OF RELIEF!!!!

So.... I went off the eating rails. Got totally triggered two weeks ago, lost eating focus for a week.. fortunately I went to the gym five times that week, so my weight did not change. I was able to talk to a friend about how I was back to my addiction to "white" (white flour, white sugar...etc...)food. I could not seem to talk myself out of what I was doing. So between talking and doing a behaviour modification chart I was able to see what trigger had been hit. I was able by Monday to stop eating my comfort foods. But I did not track my points this week. Was only able to do one cardio and two yoga classes I thought FOR SURE I would up a pound or two... nope exactly the same as last week.

So, I have lost two weeks of weight loss. BUT.... I was able to figure out a deeper level to my eating trigger... which I feel really good about. And I was able to stop the cravings with useful tools: talking to someone who knows me inside and out (not literally tho' ha ha) and go back to my tools which helped me getting my thoughtless addiction eating under control. I never used to talk to people about my weight, it was such an issue of shame for me. And my weight gain started with an incident that caused me a great deal of harm and shame, so in my distorted thinking I never talked about it. It was a viscious cycle. I don't think I have that issue anymore, which is a biggie to me.

So... today I am hella grateful. I will be at yoga on Sunday and next week is back to my usual workout routine. And I will track like mad. I have goals dammit... real goals....