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jelli · 08-06-2011, 11:42 PM

Well, here goes nothing. I keep looking in my mirror and saying "if not now jelli, then when?" key word here is "keep" as in "continuous" as in "omfg would you just get it together sister".

I am a mom of 5 who has had medical issues requiring several surgeries. I am an emotional eater. I love food.

I have worked at de-stressing my life and I have reduced the migraines to seldom, but the eating gets away from me sometimes. I know I eat because I am feeling lonely because cruel is out on the road. Sometimes I eat to numb the feelings. I could insert a lot of excuses in here, but in the end I own it. I know what I eat.

I have done the bariatric diet. I have gone to WW 3 times now. I get all psyched, lose weight, and within a few months gain it back. I am tired, but apparently not committed enough to change much. Then comes the negative talk. Vicious cycle be gone!!!

I have been reading this thread everyday and thank everyone for posting. I keep hoping this magical light of motivation and inspiration will finally go off bigger and brighter than ever.

Why am I getting in my own way? What is the payoff?

08-06-2011, 11:42 PM	#832
jelli Member How Do You Identify?: Femmilicious Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: And you said I wasn’t your type!!! Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: SC Posts: 836 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,758 Thanked 1,079 Times in 377 Posts Rep Power: 16588548	Self Sabotage? Well, here goes nothing. I keep looking in my mirror and saying "if not now jelli, then when?" key word here is "keep" as in "continuous" as in "omfg would you just get it together sister". I am a mom of 5 who has had medical issues requiring several surgeries. I am an emotional eater. I love food. I have worked at de-stressing my life and I have reduced the migraines to seldom, but the eating gets away from me sometimes. I know I eat because I am feeling lonely because cruel is out on the road. Sometimes I eat to numb the feelings. I could insert a lot of excuses in here, but in the end I own it. I know what I eat. I have done the bariatric diet. I have gone to WW 3 times now. I get all psyched, lose weight, and within a few months gain it back. I am tired, but apparently not committed enough to change much. Then comes the negative talk. Vicious cycle be gone!!! I have been reading this thread everyday and thank everyone for posting. I keep hoping this magical light of motivation and inspiration will finally go off bigger and brighter than ever. Why am I getting in my own way? What is the payoff? __________________ “Sometimes we make the right decision; sometimes we make the decision right.” “Every conflict is a lesson in self-discovery for both of us. Sometimes it's only hindsight that makes it worth it. For you, I would do it all again.“