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PinkieLee · 08-25-2011, 12:42 PM

This journey and every single step along the way is fucking hard! There are days that I portray such an encouraging face to the world, when all I wanna do is eat every single thing in sight! Sometimes my negative self talk says, "you can talk the talk Tonya, but can you walk the walk."

Like many others, my 21 pounds that I've lost has not made a very significant change ~ clothing size wise. Yes, my body is starting to feel better, I have more stamina, and my pants are getting baggy. But, the damn vanity side of myself wants to SEE more significant results in the mirror. People say oh you've lost 20 pounds... I can totally see it in your face. Well hell, I wanna see 20 pounds gone from my ASS!

When D was out of town this past weekend, I felt triggers MULTIPLE times to self soothe with food. Luckily, I'm learning how to acknowledge how I'm feeling NOW, before I slide down the slope headed toward a binge.

Ultimately, I started this journey... not because I wanted to, but because I needed to. My health was suffering to a point that I could no longer ignore. I know that I'm making healthier choices, not only for the here & right now, but also the Tonya I want to be in the future... the mother that wants to be able to carry a healthy baby one day.

With anything else that we set out to accomplish, we have to take it with baby steps... one day at a time. When the negative self talk starts to pop up, I just have to remind myself that tomorrow will be a better day! Each day (and YES, each meal) is a clean slate... it's up to me to make the changes AND hang on tight for the bumpy journey!

08-25-2011, 12:42 PM	#1364
PinkieLee Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: I need ya boo, gotta see ya boo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Big Money Texas Posts: 4,708 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 24,309 Thanked 13,076 Times in 3,049 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	This journey and every single step along the way is fucking hard! There are days that I portray such an encouraging face to the world, when all I wanna do is eat every single thing in sight! Sometimes my negative self talk says, "you can talk the talk Tonya, but can you walk the walk." Like many others, my 21 pounds that I've lost has not made a very significant change ~ clothing size wise. Yes, my body is starting to feel better, I have more stamina, and my pants are getting baggy. But, the damn vanity side of myself wants to SEE more significant results in the mirror. People say oh you've lost 20 pounds... I can totally see it in your face. Well hell, I wanna see 20 pounds gone from my ASS! When D was out of town this past weekend, I felt triggers MULTIPLE times to self soothe with food. Luckily, I'm learning how to acknowledge how I'm feeling NOW, before I slide down the slope headed toward a binge. Ultimately, I started this journey... not because I wanted to, but because I needed to. My health was suffering to a point that I could no longer ignore. I know that I'm making healthier choices, not only for the here & right now, but also the Tonya I want to be in the future... the mother that wants to be able to carry a healthy baby one day. With anything else that we set out to accomplish, we have to take it with baby steps... one day at a time. When the negative self talk starts to pop up, I just have to remind myself that tomorrow will be a better day! Each day (and YES, each meal) is a clean slate... it's up to me to make the changes AND hang on tight for the bumpy journey!