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Rockinonahigh · 08-29-2011, 03:33 PM

Today I went to the doc for an 11:30am appointment,I got there at 11:15,it took over two hours to just get my bp(120/65) weight 2481/2 then I got measured for hights...I lost a half inch..I was 5'5"...where I dont know but I want it back.I didnt stay for the appointment cause after a four hour wait and u can bet they werent anywhere close to my number,I went home.I understand they had folks ahead of me,but four hours is to dam long to wait on much of anything.I wasnt sick or needed to see him but he wanted to do a follow up on the last appointment.I will rescedual if I need to go for anything,hopefuly I can get an appointment when all the drug reps arent takeing all the time up that should be used for seeing people..Grrrrr.
On another subject...In my family we dont have many over weight people,most of us a re pretty active,my parenrts,grand folks,aunts and uncles,the only one that was ever remotely over weight was my grannie in later years of her life.On to my generation we have folks that are either thin or in the middle weight wise with only a couple who are heavy.I didnt put this weight on till 15 years ago when I stoped chaseing rodeos on a near daily basics.I was very active,hardly ate,worked near all the time,then it became really hard to go from day to day without wanting to eat more and more.In truth I was on 500 calries a day,takeing 20 pills a day to combat vitimin loss,once a day I made an 8 oz shake with liquid iron based vitimins in it..it was nasty to drink but on big gulp or two it was down and gone.Then I had a hysto..I havent been the same sence,then there was as series of family drama that prolly was the thing that set me on the path to over eating from stress.Stress I had in ten folds that just didnt stop till long after mom passed.Then I had to deal with the guilt of following a promiss I made to her that when and if she went into a coma or had no brain function and was by all means and ways deceased from illness or stroke that I would not prolong her life by mechanical means.For the first three years every morning at 3:10am I would wake up with the phone ringing in my head..it dosent happen but once and a while now..this is probly whay I dont sleep all night or take so long to fall asleep.I finaly ajusted to things ,got folks out of my life that were toxic...some family some friends I really cared for but were drama ridden.So now I am getting a hold of life for the better,it just took a while..the price was high but bit by bit im reclaiming me for me and no one else.It just takes one step at the time and the courage to keep takeing the steps.

08-29-2011, 03:33 PM	#1476
Rockinonahigh Senior Member How Do You Identify?: stone butch Preferred Pronoun?: makes no diffrence,I know who I am. Relationship Status: single,maybe looking if the right person comes along. Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: shreveport,Louisiana Posts: 4,907 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 4,682 Thanked 14,933 Times in 3,938 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Today I went to the doc for an 11:30am appointment,I got there at 11:15,it took over two hours to just get my bp(120/65) weight 2481/2 then I got measured for hights...I lost a half inch..I was 5'5"...where I dont know but I want it back.I didnt stay for the appointment cause after a four hour wait and u can bet they werent anywhere close to my number,I went home.I understand they had folks ahead of me,but four hours is to dam long to wait on much of anything.I wasnt sick or needed to see him but he wanted to do a follow up on the last appointment.I will rescedual if I need to go for anything,hopefuly I can get an appointment when all the drug reps arent takeing all the time up that should be used for seeing people..Grrrrr. On another subject...In my family we dont have many over weight people,most of us a re pretty active,my parenrts,grand folks,aunts and uncles,the only one that was ever remotely over weight was my grannie in later years of her life.On to my generation we have folks that are either thin or in the middle weight wise with only a couple who are heavy.I didnt put this weight on till 15 years ago when I stoped chaseing rodeos on a near daily basics.I was very active,hardly ate,worked near all the time,then it became really hard to go from day to day without wanting to eat more and more.In truth I was on 500 calries a day,takeing 20 pills a day to combat vitimin loss,once a day I made an 8 oz shake with liquid iron based vitimins in it..it was nasty to drink but on big gulp or two it was down and gone.Then I had a hysto..I havent been the same sence,then there was as series of family drama that prolly was the thing that set me on the path to over eating from stress.Stress I had in ten folds that just didnt stop till long after mom passed.Then I had to deal with the guilt of following a promiss I made to her that when and if she went into a coma or had no brain function and was by all means and ways deceased from illness or stroke that I would not prolong her life by mechanical means.For the first three years every morning at 3:10am I would wake up with the phone ringing in my head..it dosent happen but once and a while now..this is probly whay I dont sleep all night or take so long to fall asleep.I finaly ajusted to things ,got folks out of my life that were toxic...some family some friends I really cared for but were drama ridden.So now I am getting a hold of life for the better,it just took a while..the price was high but bit by bit im reclaiming me for me and no one else.It just takes one step at the time and the courage to keep takeing the steps.