[Arwen]

Originally Posted by Lizzy

.Every year when Septermber comes around I think of that day in September all those years ago I still remember it like it was yesterday.I still remember the Doctors exact words.My anxiety levels go up, I start to get insomnia at night then I am cranky the next day.But I smile my day through work and then I come home and crash.Usually after a couple of weeks I start to come back around but year after year I go through the same cycle.I want to come to some sort of peace with this but every year I am just filled with such regret.

I would look for a therapist that does EMRD (Eye Movement Rapid Desensiztation. I have done this for some traumatic events in my life. It's a newer thing and I was WAY skeptical at first. But it works. Like really works. PM me if you want information. I'd be happy to ask my therapist if she knows anyone in your area. I lost my dad on my 11th birthday to a car wreck. Every year around my birthday I would get anxious, etc. It's awful and I do understand that feeling of "Oh no...I'm doing it again". Hang in there.