Today I go a Charger's game. Today she is on oxygen and lasix. Today, tell someone you love them.
She is so much better. I spent the day looking at pictures of our family, our relationship of 20 years, our first car, our first home. She laughed at my hippy look and hair. I laughed about her first Thanksgiving turkey that was raw when I cut it. We went out for dinner that year. We reminisced and smiled about a once beautiful love, that brought us together. In the twilight of the day, Peg made me vanilla tea, and we dunked spice cookies. We didn't speak of our breakup, or where we went wrong. She stroked my leg and I her hair. We talked about the crypts we bought so long ago, and laughed when the kids said that was weird. Last night, we both decided a ceremony at sea is where we both want to be.
We talked about her last wishes, looked at the Living Will and Advanced Directive.. Last night we couldn't fill it out. Maybe on my next visit, maybe Nancy, RN, the Home Health Nurse that will visit her today can do it. We just couldn't. Maybe never. I drove home with tears, and an ache deep inside . She may get better, but never well.
