[Starbuck]

My true first woman crush, that I admitted to myself, didn't come until I was 36 years old. I fell for a very close friend of mine and I didn't even know if she was into women or not. She finally came out to me but only to tell me that she was interested in another woman. That was kind of hard to hear because I was already in love with her and we never had even held hands much less kissed! I agonized to tell her. I have since told her that I'm in love with her and she says she knows. She said it was very apparent. I don't know how can be, I hold it in so well or so I thought.