[clay]

[COLOR="Blue"]First, let me say I knew I would have an army of comrades in here..and I knew I would be enveloped, held, loved, and cherished..I am not alone in here....for that I am thankful!! I am blessed..beyond measure...I think this is one of the most supportive, the most caring, and the tightest knit group of all..for the battle scars are worn with pride...and we carry one another...we hol done another..for we are mirrors of one another!!! Now, before I begin to cry again...let me finish.
I lost my wife almost 3 years ago..to Stage IV Breast Cancer..with mets to Liver/Lung/Bone/Brain/Skull/Kidney...that was her initial diagnosis[..we were told to make final arrangements and if there was a trip she wanted to go on, to go now.....she had to get 40 rad tx. right off the bat before she could even hope to get chemo....10 to hip, 10 to shoulder, 10 to cervical spine and 10 to thoracic spine.. She was one of first people on Tykerb after that...anyway she gave a helluva fight for 26 months. Liver failure...BUT she was able to die at home, in my arms, and was what she wanted...she asked only that I NOT say she "lost her battle to cancer" but to say she "passed her torch on..and I did! We had 15 wonderful years together...not nearly enough BUT I was blessed with those. Our relationship was wholly loving, healthy, positive, and one in which I would hope to have again. It was so good..and I miss her..so damn much. I know she would be here with me.and her spirit will be..and many others..and all of you here as well...thanks..
My oncologist will be doing a total hysto (uterus, tubes, ovaries, and lymph nodes, along with my appendix) and do follow up with radiation prophylactically! She is hoping to use the Da Vinci robotic arm and do a vag. hyst...so I am hoping that she will be able to do so. I will be at Hollings Cancer Center..a division of MUSC...
So, thanks each and every one of you Brave Warriors..I hope to be half as brave as each of you are....we need to have each of us a pink bandana embroidered....we had them made for my wife..and each of us wore them at the memorial service, had 45 motorcycles there..and released 30 pink balloons in her memory!
Ok folks, let's kick this Big C's ass.what say ye...I'm in...let's crusade on my family...I love you all...totally!! Debby..I will see you tomorrow. I am the one who is smiling....Clay/COLOR]