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PinkieLee · 11-16-2011, 01:16 PM

Most of my adult life I have been a big girl. Let me tell you... I embraced it with every ounce of my being. I owned it, and my confidence was always strong. I even dated a woman that used to comment all the time about how sexy my confidence was... that if I didn't have it, we probably wouldn't have dated. I didn't know if I should take that as a compliment or a dig that she normally wouldn't date a big girl.

I've been every size from a size 13 - 28. Then, this past year, I started noticing every single little ache, muscle fatigue, out of breath walk... when that started steam rolling, my self confidence started going down right along with it.

See, I'm one of those women that has lived by the motto "fake it till you make it". In front of people, I put on a very brave face and can portray confidence that would knock your socks off. When it's just me, alone in my thoughts, I'm my own worst enemy.

So, this journey of making healthier decisions is starting to help me get back to the Tonya I once was. Let me rephrase this... I want to be a better Tonya. One that loves herself enough to put herself & her health first before anyone else.

THANK YOU all for keeping me coming back here... for encouraging me when I fall, but not allowing me to stay down for long. I appreciate you and your journeys more than y'all will ever know!

11-16-2011, 01:16 PM	#2275
PinkieLee Senior Member How Do You Identify?: Femme Relationship Status: I need ya boo, gotta see ya boo Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Big Money Texas Posts: 4,708 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 24,309 Thanked 13,075 Times in 3,049 Posts Rep Power: 21474856	Most of my adult life I have been a big girl. Let me tell you... I embraced it with every ounce of my being. I owned it, and my confidence was always strong. I even dated a woman that used to comment all the time about how sexy my confidence was... that if I didn't have it, we probably wouldn't have dated. I didn't know if I should take that as a compliment or a dig that she normally wouldn't date a big girl. I've been every size from a size 13 - 28. Then, this past year, I started noticing every single little ache, muscle fatigue, out of breath walk... when that started steam rolling, my self confidence started going down right along with it. See, I'm one of those women that has lived by the motto "fake it till you make it". In front of people, I put on a very brave face and can portray confidence that would knock your socks off. When it's just me, alone in my thoughts, I'm my own worst enemy. So, this journey of making healthier decisions is starting to help me get back to the Tonya I once was. Let me rephrase this... I want to be a better Tonya. One that loves herself enough to put herself & her health first before anyone else. THANK YOU all for keeping me coming back here... for encouraging me when I fall, but not allowing me to stay down for long. I appreciate you and your journeys more than y'all will ever know!