[smouldering]

This is going to sound so cliche but its true lol
My first real actual crush where I knew it was a crush ie feelinge etc.
I was 12 and she was 16, she was amazing *sighs* it was at Girl Scout camp and she was my counselor, She was a soccer player from Holland, very butch, her name was S****** but went by the name "tulip" because all of the counselors had little playful names for camp. She had short blonde hair and bright piercing blue eyes with a very boyish figure, I was glued to her and she would always give me hugs and let me sit on her lap, i even got a few quick kisses on the cheek too, we were inseparable during the whole summer , I cried so hard at the end of the summer when camp was over and I wouldn't be able to see her again as she was going back to Holland, We kept in contact for a couple years writing letters back and forth but eventually we lost contact.. I do often wonder what ever became of her *smiles*