Some may have noticed that I haven't been online in a long while. I've been in somewhat of a funk over the last few months. Sometimes I don't realize how time goes by. I've been dealing with family bullshit, sickness and everyone wanting a piece of me with trying to fix situations and fix people. Story of my fuckin' life.
I wish the fuck people would try and help themselves and their situations rather than want to ignore shit like it will go away. You feel beat up on the inside and now it's come to me finally being done.
I can't do it anymore and the rest is up to everyone else. Take ownership and do something about your situation(s) and your life. I can't be your oxygen or help you if you're not willing to help yourselves. We've done just about everything for you and that's what the problem probably is/was. Fuckin' expectations.
I've become numb and just doing my thing now and concentrating on me and my household.
To be honest, I have some Christmas spirit but honestly, not much. Which I must say, my motto in regard to life is: Treat people the way you want to be treated all year round. Don't wait for a Holiday or special occasion.
Because of everything whirling around me you don't realize how time does fly. I'm usually better prepared for the holidays and this year we haven't even sent out Christmas/Holiday cards.
I made a last minute decision yesterday. I decided that my wife should be able to spend the holiday (which is celebrated very big) in MN with her family. We are able to get a major deal with our friend who is a flight attendant. That's my present to her. Her family is wonderful and there is NO drama. It's a very peaceful environment and they are good people. Sometimes it seems too surreal of what a normal family atmosphere is.
We will be there for 3 days only, but it doesn't matter. It will be 3 days of happiness especially for my wife as she/we will be with her loving family.
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