[Vlasta]

hmm .... today I found very small lump in my breast and I have a little pain in my armpit . I am sitting here and I know , right now I can't tell my son and his family . We just have been trough a traumatic situation and they would go crazy , chase me to a doctor and I am sick and tired of doctors since my health haven't been so good for the past two years .
I know this sounds selfish , since I have grandchildren and I would love to be in they lives , it could be really nothing, so I will just monitor , keep my mouth shot and see .

Back in 90's I used to go to help on oncology unit, since I am certified to hang a chemo and back then I promised myself, I wouldn't go through radiation or chemo. It was really sad , emotional when you get attached to patients and they passed . As I said , call me crazy , but I am firm believer after all my life in medical field when it's your time to go , you will no matter where are you or what you are doing .

I couldn't post this on the Czech boards or tell my friends, because they would act the same and I am not going to a doctor . I can't even think to have other surgery . So , right now it's not big deal and I will see .

thank you for reading my post , it feels like I needed to get it out somewhere .

Vlasta