Honey, it sounds like you need to just walk away. It's a hard thing to do and I've had to do it. I am enjoying not having my ex best friend's negativity and drama in my life.
When you go to the gym, just hold your head up high and show them, that you can succeed in your goals!
Zimmeh
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Originally Posted by Leigh
Hi everyone,
I came in today because I'm struggling right now, with everything, and I believe that the best thing to do is to reach out for friends because right now the God and Goddess know that I could use more. Two weeks ago I lost two of my supposed best friends; one I had known for 12 or 13 years (since high school) and her boyfriend I only met last year even though she has known him for about 5 years now. She was like a sister to me and yet she chose her relationship with him over our friendship ~ he calls her down, orders her around, tells her what to do and when to do it and treats everyone around him (including me in the past) like dirt. I truly thought that I had two friends who would never let me down, and yet they both turned their backs on me and have gone on with their lives like nothing ever happened.
They started going to the gym with me and now I've gone twice alone; I get scared to walk into the gym in case they are both there and its just not as fun as it used to be. They were my support system, cheering me on right there with me and told me how great I was doing. I know I'm doing good but at least I had people there who I thought cared about me, and now going alone is just proving to be too hard on me. I don't want to quit at all but its really hard going there without the memory of them being right there haunting me; its scary and I admit that. I don't know exactly how to deal with it, and I'm noticing that I'm turning yet again to food to try and cope with everything that has happened.
I've been eating more again the last 2-3 days and when I weighed myself in Monday I noticed that I had gained a pound. I guess my biggest question is how do I deal with this in a way that won't have me sabotaging what progress that I have made already? How do I deal with emotional everyday stresses that are causing me to, yet again, eat more? For now I am going to do my best to deal with all of this as best I can on my own and with help from my family, but I know that I can always turn to my extended family here for help 
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