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How Do You Identify?: Mr Mtn's babygirl
Preferred Pronoun?: girly, she
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Something i have been struggling with for a couple of weeks now..
Hearing my stepmother talking with her friend, at work under her breath..
& laughing at me as i was undressing in the girl's locker room.
i have lost a considerable amount of weight, however i need to tone my arms, because i have loose skin happening...
But how my stepmother ever thought that i would be okay overhearing her chuckling at me, saying how could i ever be comfortable showing that & then shivering like it was the most disgusting thing in the world.
While i know i've still a ways to go with my weight, it saddens me that she picks on me like this and not even to my face but rather, behind my back.. (or well, attempted to)...
While i have distanced both her & my father for about 3-4 weeks now (& this was a VERY good decision for my own well-being).. It's difficult to truly distance her when i work in the same building as her..
i don't like my body, however i am learning to LOVE it - and as my confidence grows, i'm learning to shake things like this off .. i still love them, wish them nothing harsh, but do wish them some peace of mind and some love in their hearts to not have to be so miserable and not be so judgemental.. life's too short.. But now i know, distancing them was indeed the right choice for me.
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my Mantra: i am letting go of angers, continuing to find forgiveness, welcoming inner peace & deserving of it all.
my facebook weight loss page:
http://www.facebook.com/asyllyjourney
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