[sylvie]

weigh in day today..*gulp*
i always get so damn nervous on weigh in days..
i keep reminding myself though that this isn't about the weight lost, but about the journey in general and my overall improved health...

So today, i am practicing gratitude before my appointment at 11am.
Taking notice of the things i am grateful for on this weight loss journey..
And if there is no loss at the end of the day, i can come back here and say 'girl, that's okay because look how far you've come!'..

- my improved health & getting off high blood pressure medication
- no aches, no pains
- growing self-esteem & confidence (LOVE it)
- i portion my food, i take my time while i eat
- i can wear clothing more snug to my body, rather than sizes too big because i am proud of the body i own.
- i can look in the mirror at my full self & smile again.
- i have such an amazing amount of energy each day, and push myself more & more..
- i went from a size 26 pants to a size 20 (which is now big on me)
- i dropped from 315 lbs to 229 lbs (last weigh in)
- & i am doing all of this despite a food addiction & eating disorder, which i work through every single day with all of my tools, regardless of how exhausted i feel..

Those are just some of my accomplishments of a long list of them..
Suddenly, i am feeling much better about this appointment - gratitude helps me along with this journey, so much.. Helps me be easier on myself & accept the ups and downs..

Plus, that's all something to squeal about! right?