Day 17
6pm, Keeping it Real meeting. Just five of us. It was a cracking meeting. As they say, it just takes two to make a meeting.
So, I'm sober but still the behaviour of my addiction and the fear still controls me. It's tough to let go of the fear...feel the fear and do it anyway is the old book title says but I can't do it...yet. It's about now that I would be going on an avoidance bender. I don't want to drink but I do still want to play the avoidance game. My brain is pinging all over the place but I have to pull this out of the bag in a weeks time.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
...and the wisdom to know the difference.
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