Now I got the itches. The back of one hand is scratched sore since last night.
Why the hell do I keep waking up feeling like crap? I could sleep and sleep past lunchtime as in my old drinking pattern but I'm not letting myself and have risen before 10am every day...my Pops thinks that this is part of making me a 'normal' person...but each day I feel like utter crap; it does improve throughout the day mostly but not always; yesterday I was half asleep and useless all day. I wanna stamp my feet like a petulant child and say "It's not fair!" but no-one said getting sober would be fair or easy, it just is the way it is.
I have to try study again today but my poor addled, pinging brain will barely stay still for me to grab what it knows out of the ether. I'm hoping my tutor will understand and extend until next Friday.
By the grace of God and the first three (well, two really) steps, today is Day 18
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