[Breathless]

1. My name is made up, the creation of two people who didnt want the traditional spelling.
2. I have learned that the people who should give you unconditional love, don't.
3. I have learned that the people who don't have to, do so unconditionally, and whole heartly.
4. My children, Cory and Kimberly, amaze me every day, they are so different and so beautiful.
5. I love being a mom, and I love it even more when they call me mommy by accident. Sometimes I wish they were a little more dependant on me.
6. I love driving, I do it too much.
7. I have to learn to forgive myself more.
8. I write lists. Lists for everything. So I can check them off and feel like I have accomplished something.
9. I am always either late or seriousily early. Most often early because I am embarrassed about being late.
10. I sing the loudest when I am alone and I don't think anyone can hear, either way I am always singing. I'm told I sing well, I think Im okay at best.
11. I am anal about spelling and grammer. Obsessively so sometimes.
12. I talk too much when I shouldn't, and not enough when I should.
13. I am the oldest neice, granddaughter in my family. I am finally an auntie!
14. I have 3 brothers and 2 sisters, and I also have a brother and sister I have adopted as my siblings.
15. I love the person I have become, and I am pretty close to the person I want to be.
16. I am too hard on myself about my handwritting. In school I would often not hand something in and take a zero, because I didn't feel it was written neatly enough. Can you say OCD?
17. I still think about 2 of my teachers from elementary school, and miss them. I always felt they believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself.
18. I cry in sappy movies, even if I have seen them before. I love horror movies, but I cant watch them alone, the fear doesnt leave when Im alone.
19. I was homeless more than once, before I had children. My parents divorced and I was the one they fought about not taking, there for I have fended for myself since 12 years old.
20. I dont know how to accept when people do nice things for me. I need to feel there is a balance, so i try to give more than I receive. Being spoiled makes me feel vulnerable. I am the one who buys gifts for people, and just leaves them to be found nameless.
21. I love to cook, bake and try new recipies. I am a perfectionist in my presentation, or I am too embarrassed to serve it. I have run my own catering business off and on for nearly 20 years.
22. I have a bucket list, it keeps growing, and shrinking on a regular basis.
23. I am not scared of dying. I am scared of not being done what I want to do, when it is time to go.
24. I am unrealistically terrified of leeches, and bloodsuckers. I think spiders and snakes are amazing.
25. I seriousily check my lottery tickets like I really might have won, and feel a little sad when I don't, for just a moment..