[foxyshaman]

Originally Posted by sylvie

It's been a hard week for me..
my Mémère isn't well, and my emotions are all over the place..
i'm very close with my grandparents, and found out this week she has an aggressive lung cancer and we're losing her to it - she's decided she didn't want treatment (and i don't blame her at almost 88 years old)..


So she's home & my cousin and i decided to take this weekend off, we need to see her so we're travelling (5 hour drive) up to Petit Rocher and spending it with her.. i need this before i travel to Mr Mtn this Wednesday..♥

ANYway, this week has been full of triggers for me, and it's been difficult, and i'm losing myself and i need to regain control.. So this morning, right now i am getting ready for the gym, and heading out in a bout 15-20 mins..i reminded myself this morning, food is *NOT* my enemy, and so back to taking care of me properly..

Posting this here, helps me keep myself accountable so i will GO.
i make excuses in my own mind not to go, now i will..

Thank you all for the posts i could go through to help motivate me to post in here.. i've been absent, but only because my days have been difficult and busy..i will be back and catch up properly, rep and comment and love on you all because you all ROCK..

Just needed this frigging motivation and ass kicking this morning..
So thank you!!!

-- off i go --

I am sorry to hear Sylvie that you are experiencing such a rough week. Sometimes between our own 'stuff' and the other 'stuff' life hands us, we don't always know which way to go. Triggers suck and food is not the enemy. Stay motivated, as best you can. If you don't, we both know that our internal critic will wreak havoc on our gentle souls. Be kind to yourself, above all things, be kind and have compassion.

I know there is little I can say to ease you, but know I am thinking of you. I am rooting for you. And I am sorry you are losing a person you deeply love. I am glad she is not taking treatment, I think that is wise at 88. Love her as long as you have her, and love her with warm memories after she is gone.

As always, with love and hugs

Foxy