[Morgan]

Trying to make healthy choices is so difficult....whether emotional, spiritial or physical. I have noticed however, when I start with the physical, the emotional and spirital seem to fall into place. My body and mind is no longer young, I will be 51 in a few days and had really let myself go, I had stopped caring about myself and it was starting to catch up to me. Do I think I am strong, yes, but not as strong as I once was. It is hard to admit my weaknesses, especially I believe as a butch, I do not like to admit there are certain things I cannot do. Like playing softball, or tag football, because I am afraid I will injure myself....I have a torn maniscuss (old knee injury), something I can live with until I get insurance. I also have bi-lateral carpal tunnel (numbness and limited use of my wrists and hands) , also something I can live with...I just cannot do repetitive motion with my hands for long periods of time, it is embarassing for me to admit this.

So now that I will be 51 soon, I want to be healthy and as strong as I possibly can. I have started going to the gym, doing cardio and lifting....I am starting to feel better and as well as the workouts, I am trying to make better choices in my diet. I am not a very good cook, I will be the first to admit this, but I am eating lower carbs, calories and fat....I have a very sensitive digestive system and know what I can eat and cannot eat. I have lost over 40 pounds in a year and a half and continue to build up my body. I do smoke cigarettes and drink lots of coffee, that will be my next goal, but for now I take it one day at a time.

I am looking forward to what this year will bring and now that I have found my home on the Planet, I will continue to read and see what others are doing to feel better for themselves, I know this will help give me the inspiration to feel better for myself. You are a great bunch on here and I thank you for posting from your heart....please feel free to stop by anytime.

Hugs
Morgan