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foxyshaman · 03-21-2012, 10:10 AM

I had a very wobbly weekend. I was all over the map with stuff to do and not being very 'present'. So, i have no idea what I will weigh this week. I am not too worried, I know I have not gained. I am still working out almost daily. I love that.

In my tracker, I realize, I tend to 'lose it' over the weekends. But, if I did not use my tracker I would not have really paid attention to that. Another clue in the long list of "oh yeah that". The trigger that made me eat like crazy, was faced and is no longer an issue. What a freaking relief that was.

I am very proud of what I have accomplished so far. I went from a size 22 to a size 12 now. My measurements are showing improvements. I wish I would have kept all of my measurements, but when I changed calendars out went the numbers. Wasn't thinking. But, lately the critical voice is slipping in. Like a part of me is not satisfied with all that I have accomplished. It frightens me, to be quite honest. I keep it at bay, but the fact remains, it can come out of nowhere. The Saboteur is rearing her head and making her voice heard. She is such a bitch. And can be so destructive. My left hip and knee are out, even though I went to the chiro last week. But a nerve is being pinched making the outside of my left foot numb. At least I figured out why yesterday... now to try to make time to see my chiro this week.

But, today I feel good. Today is my long Wednesday. Weight lifting, but this time no gay yoga cause I am still in my swimming lessons. That breathing... good gracious... that is all I practice. I am swallowing less water, but I can still panic if I am not in the right rhythm and 'lose my breath'. So, back at it tonite. I tell ya, come Thursdays my thighs ask me if I really want to do Zumba... smiling... of course and then we can relax. Fridays are usually easy, cause its only 1.5 hr yoga. But this weekend is a yoga workshop.... 13 hours worth. But whateva.... its not like I can't do it.

Thanks for keeping me motivated everyone. Thanks for your inspiring stories.

03-21-2012, 10:10 AM	#3414
foxyshaman Member How Do You Identify?: spiritually minded dirt dog Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: canada Posts: 898 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,957 Thanked 2,592 Times in 663 Posts Rep Power: 21474852	I had a very wobbly weekend. I was all over the map with stuff to do and not being very 'present'. So, i have no idea what I will weigh this week. I am not too worried, I know I have not gained. I am still working out almost daily. I love that. In my tracker, I realize, I tend to 'lose it' over the weekends. But, if I did not use my tracker I would not have really paid attention to that. Another clue in the long list of "oh yeah that". The trigger that made me eat like crazy, was faced and is no longer an issue. What a freaking relief that was. I am very proud of what I have accomplished so far. I went from a size 22 to a size 12 now. My measurements are showing improvements. I wish I would have kept all of my measurements, but when I changed calendars out went the numbers. Wasn't thinking. But, lately the critical voice is slipping in. Like a part of me is not satisfied with all that I have accomplished. It frightens me, to be quite honest. I keep it at bay, but the fact remains, it can come out of nowhere. The Saboteur is rearing her head and making her voice heard. She is such a bitch. And can be so destructive. My left hip and knee are out, even though I went to the chiro last week. But a nerve is being pinched making the outside of my left foot numb. At least I figured out why yesterday... now to try to make time to see my chiro this week. But, today I feel good. Today is my long Wednesday. Weight lifting, but this time no gay yoga cause I am still in my swimming lessons. That breathing... good gracious... that is all I practice. I am swallowing less water, but I can still panic if I am not in the right rhythm and 'lose my breath'. So, back at it tonite. I tell ya, come Thursdays my thighs ask me if I really want to do Zumba... smiling... of course and then we can relax. Fridays are usually easy, cause its only 1.5 hr yoga. But this weekend is a yoga workshop.... 13 hours worth. But whateva.... its not like I can't do it. Thanks for keeping me motivated everyone. Thanks for your inspiring stories. __________________ Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail. Muriel Strode