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Originally Posted by SuperFemme
Thanks Jude! I'm wondering about the common theme of reclusiveness amongst us...
I cannot take large doses of people at a time. I lost the two of my five senses and cannot smell or taste. I have the hearing of a bat.
I get overwhelmed so easily now, and focused attention is difficult as is divided attention.
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I find it harder and harder to get out among "people". Large groups! AUGHHHH!!!!!!! Shopping at Wal-Mart?!!!!!!!
NO!!!!!!!!! Company here at home, no - not right now,
please. (Although I am grateful for whoever might care, I simply do not/cannot ask for help anyway.)
I like my attention right now to be for the few I REALLY, really care about, and that is FINE with/by me! That's what I got! I simply do the best I can Super. And, I am going to be in control the best I can, by my choices - when/while I have that choice. (i.e. Why would I invite an anyone into my home when I'm not comfortable with it, or I'm not comfortable
with them right now, OR... why would I go anywhere where I don't feel comfortable?) Immediate family is where I am at! And that is a stretch at times, what consitutes "family" for me. Honestly.
Our world does become smaller
in a sense. But, I was wondering lately, IF the internet is more of a liability
for me, or as asset (?) QUEER-WISE, it is a good thing probably - for where I live, isolated from ANY "sense" of the word/world
community,
as it applies to me.
I don't want to become too complacent with that however, but... I LIKE IT. (I'm also grateful that I traveled A LOT at one time, but honestly, I am missing that right now. Bereaving, for my gypsy blood...) On one hand it's good that I am fine with being alone... on another " I am a lover, nester, family person", etc... sometimes I feel like I am walking a thin line here. I have
always said, that "if I jump off the path now and then throughout life, FINE! AS LONG AS I CAN SEE THE PATH, I will be OK - if and when I need to get back on. Well, right this second I'm wondering... do I really
still see that path? Or am I just remembering that I had this "philosophy" (about "visualizing a path)? Hmmmmm... (?)
I am really sorry to hear about your "loss of senses". That REALLY SUCKS!!
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I have another point I want to bring to this topic, but it's not fitting quite right here and now I don't think.
HUGS,
ME