[Morgan]

I know how difficult what you are going through is, I too at your age went through the same thing. I was 19 when I met my partner, she was 21 years my senior, we stayed together 3 years. She too promised it would not happen again, but in a drunken rage she would lash out and hit me...I am embarassed to say I believed her. She was much bigger than myself, I was small at the time, and she would overpower me. I am a butch, but it can happen to any of us. I watched as my mother was beaten by my stepfather when I was growing up. I knew it was wrong, but I stayed in my relationship, just as my mother had, hoping it would get better. I believed this woman was the one, she understood me and we shared so much, but I was mistaken....Leaving the relationship was the best thing I could have done. It was difficult and I felt so much love for her, but I cannot let someone hurt me or take a piece of me away. It took many years of therapy, but I learned from it and know I could never let that happen again.
Please get away from her....you do not deserve the hurt and the pain, she is not worth it, really. I will be 51 in a few days and I know from first hand experience it does get better....It really does.