[LaneyDoll]

Originally Posted by dancer611

I don't know how I'll meet another butch who meets all my emotional and physical and spiritual needs like she did, and like I did for her; who I can love as completely and connect to as deeply; who I can tell anything to without judgment; who will be interested in me and I in them, and we will both have eyes only for each other; who I can give my whole heart to and love unconditionally, and who will do the same for me. So, am I crazy? What can I do in this situation? Should I cut off contact with her? If we are meant to be, is it worth it at all to try to fix anything or continue in the future?

Originally Posted by dancer611

She was bearing down on me, using her size to intimidate me, and SHE HAD JUST PULLED A KNIFE ON ME AND THREATENED TO MURDER ME.

Originally Posted by dancer611

So what on earth else was I supposed to do, if I'm not allowed to ever lay a hand on anyone?

I think that if you read back to the replies that I quoted, you will answer all of your questions.

You are not crazy. If someone was attacking you, there may not have been much you could do. Yes, you should cut off contact with her. Any relationship with violence is NOT worth continuing.

So what do you do now? Learn from it, move on and be the best you can be-for yourself. Once you have everything where it should be in your life, someone will come into it and make it better. You will see. This is a lesson you learned so take that knowledge and use it to benefit yourself.

I promise that you will not be alone; but for the time that you are, it is better to be alone than fearful.