[SelfMadeMan]

Originally Posted by WolfyOne

I've been sad for the last couple of days. I found out through a text message that went to multiple people, a childhood friend is in the hospital. Not just any childhood friend, a BFF. She has Cirrhosis and this is her 2nd time in the hospital due to it. Her text message that was sent said, "back in the hospital. I don't mean to sound mean, but I don't want visitors". Had the text never been sent multiple, I may have never known. Now this is the friend who came to my house when my mom died, handed me an envelope with fifteen 100 dollar bills. She told me she also loved my mom and now I could go ahead with her funeral. She told me I had until the year 5ooo to pay her back. That was a little more than 10 years ago and I have never been able to find a way to repay her kindness. She even put my oldest brother in his place when he acted up at the visitation in front of everyone. She recently became a grandma for the first time. She has such a big heart. I want to cry, but stop myself as tears well up in my eyes. I often wonder why bad things happen to good people, but never question God. I pray and that's all I can do. My heart is heavy because I know in time I will lose a friend that was more like a sister to me than my own half sister could ever have been. Many childhood memories I share with her have flooded my head.

I am so sorry your friend is ill, and my heart goes out to both of you during this difficult time. The best advice I can give you, is that if you feel like you need to/want to cry - it's ok! Crying isn't weakness, at all. It's our release when our hearts are heavy. You're in my thoughts.