Please send light and love to Peg as she takes what will be her last long trip. and for me as I ramble and ~~~
Sometimes I have no words for the pain I see in her eyes and hear in her voice. Peg is In a dark time, a dark day, a dark place, and thoughts of betrayal wander in and out of her mind. I am at the center of it, whether true or not , in her reality of being taken from home to live with a son. Although estranged for years, we still had a bond that even after so many years together, when she got sick, I knew what where and how to get her taken care of.
Fred arrived at Peg's last Thursday night, and I found out Friday morning. I didn't expect him till the end of May. All this is happening in a week or two ~ No warning, no planning, no talking, just arrived during spring break, and told her she had to come home with him.
my heart aches. From a three bedroom home full of a lifetime of memories, she is going to a bedroom in a house with her son and daughter in law. I know something had to happen, I know I watched her alone for six months and the need, It is just so stark. Friends say it is for the best.
I know it is best as she is so ill, and so frail and I know she can't live alone, and wander around in that big house. But, to see one's life torn so upside down in a week.. Her son is taking what will fit in her car and driving with Freedom , her cat. On Weds. Peg is going JetBLue from Long Beach, CA to Vancouver WA to be picked up by the daughter in law she doesn't like. The rest of her belongings, the furniture and alllll , he is giving to the Salvation Army. The portable oxygen concentrator I was able to rent for a week arrives on Monday
Light a candle for her travels and her tears, and the loss we both feel. I am going there this afternoon to say goodbye.
for what will be the last~