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miss entycing · 04-26-2012, 05:34 AM

my candle is still lit, and gently placed in love and light.... always.

it's lovely to be back, i always miss this thread the most when i'm gone-
it holds a special and deep place in my soul... it always has.
the connection here is lovely, gentle, compassionate, loving, calm, unselfish, beautiful and serene...
all rarities in life these days. i treasure the light and love here so very much.

and tho i can't say surgery last week went well, because it really didn't-
i had to be taken back into surgery twice after my initial big one,
because i bled out internally two seperate times-
so we ended up with 3 surgeries in 19 hours, it was pretty intense there for a while...
so, what else-the surgeons broke a tooth while putting the tube back in my throat..
Yikes!! a mess- all of it!! and i am so grateful that it's done for now!
i'm just now really even starting to come back to life, after 6 days.
truthfully, i can't say that i remember the first 2 days home after being released from the hospital,
and other than to shower and little stuff, you know, like more ice cream, lol.
i haven't even left the big-soft-fluffy-comfy-pillows and blankies everywhere-
and stacked high-big girl-princess bed that Jax made specially in the middle of our living room.
blessed i am, to have such a devoted and unconditional love thru all this.

but like i said above, surgery didnt go as planned, but i do feel like it was a success in the long run,
and i'm still putting it out to the universe that pathology will come back with positive results.
i have to believe that, i can't afford not to believe, right? Can anyone really?

i wanted to take a minute to say 'Thank You' everybody.
for all the candles, support, strength and love shown.
thanks for all the cards, emails, the phone calls, the texts, the flowers-
our home is full of stunning flowers everywhere i look, the scents and colors are amazing!
its lovely, and i'm smiling.

always, and most especially- my beautiful soul Sistah and Brother in law,
thank you for leaving light in my dark, laughter thru my tears...
i adore You both... thank you for the gifts that make my soul smile.
i felt You... i still feel You.
((((( )))))

blessings, love, and light my friends here, there, all around me.
my heart is full, and i gracefully pay it forward to all of you here with this candle.
deanna

04-26-2012, 05:34 AM	#2785
miss entycing Senior Member How Do You Identify?: dangerous, but worth the risk. Preferred Pronoun?: just be nice.. it's that easy. Relationship Status: CapitalM's carved upon my skin. Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: on the southern edge of sanity, under a carolina moon. Posts: 3,276 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 8,341 Thanked 8,262 Times in 2,254 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	my candle is still lit, and gently placed in love and light.... always. it's lovely to be back, i always miss this thread the most when i'm gone- it holds a special and deep place in my soul... it always has. the connection here is lovely, gentle, compassionate, loving, calm, unselfish, beautiful and serene... all rarities in life these days. i treasure the light and love here so very much. and tho i can't say surgery last week went well, because it really didn't- i had to be taken back into surgery twice after my initial big one, because i bled out internally two seperate times- so we ended up with 3 surgeries in 19 hours, it was pretty intense there for a while... so, what else-the surgeons broke a tooth while putting the tube back in my throat.. Yikes!! a mess- all of it!! and i am so grateful that it's done for now! i'm just now really even starting to come back to life, after 6 days. truthfully, i can't say that i remember the first 2 days home after being released from the hospital, and other than to shower and little stuff, you know, like more ice cream, lol. i haven't even left the big-soft-fluffy-comfy-pillows and blankies everywhere- and stacked high-big girl-princess bed that Jax made specially in the middle of our living room. blessed i am, to have such a devoted and unconditional love thru all this. but like i said above, surgery didnt go as planned, but i do feel like it was a success in the long run, and i'm still putting it out to the universe that pathology will come back with positive results. i have to believe that, i can't afford not to believe, right? Can anyone really? i wanted to take a minute to say 'Thank You' everybody. for all the candles, support, strength and love shown. thanks for all the cards, emails, the phone calls, the texts, the flowers- our home is full of stunning flowers everywhere i look, the scents and colors are amazing! its lovely, and i'm smiling. always, and most especially- my beautiful soul Sistah and Brother in law, thank you for leaving light in my dark, laughter thru my tears... i adore You both... thank you for the gifts that make my soul smile. i felt You... i still feel You. ((((( ))))) blessings, love, and light my friends here, there, all around me. my heart is full, and i gracefully pay it forward to all of you here with this candle. deanna __________________ True strength lies in submission which permits one to dedicate their life, through devotion, to something beyond themselves. Whenever someone awakens fully, it affects human consciousness at a collective level. It is like dropping a stone into a dark murky pond. Ripples of light... Not one word need be spoken.