[Stoney]

soooo ........

here I am 46, happy as hell to be alive, just startin' to accept the fact that for the first time in my life I HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE FREE AND I just went through menapause ( and I love the feeling)...
then..
there is this young girl, 16 who ran away from home....she was being abused, no one wanted her......she spent Christmas with me and the fam and her mom just signed her off to me....don"t know me from shit, but is like.... here ya go...."you better put her on birth control... shes a little whore"....( um yeah... nice huh) so I became her guardian.

well so now after having an empty nest for like ...." two seconds" Im ... well raisin' another.

Now of course, 16 , you would think might not be too hard.... well the child has been through it, she has been abused for a long long time... she has issues... we get along great though, she loves it here her therapy is going well.

but now...

I dont know why Im tellin ya all this but I need someone my age to feel me....

Child protective services just t took my sons and gf parental rights, and I was made guardian now I also have a 1yr old and a 4 yr old.


Im 46 and I really had some pretty cool plans for my life now that it is the first time in 26 years I didnt have kids!.......

I love my grand children


But.......

FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!


GODDAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!^$#@%%&&^*&(*((*

F*CK F*CK F*CK


( I feel a little better now)


Stoney