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Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer
The power to ignite a single flame creating an illumination of light
and healing strength, to surround and carry healing energy to those in need.
Lady D
Lady P
Tommi
Peggie
Wolfy
Katchzen
Canela
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This is so sweet and I want to reignite the flame. Thanks for knowing the true pain and suffering of others in need.
At times , I have found being a caretaker is harder than building a house. Peggie quit smoking twenty years ago, but a lifetime of smoking caught up with her, she has COPD and emphysema, lack of oxygen when I found her at home in Sept. and now has been diagnosed with Alzheimer's.
Peggie turned away the once a week caregiver I hired and was coming on Wednesdays. Said she didn't nees somone to come in and make her lunch and vacuum...I reminded her that I wanted to know she was okay, and that Alma could do the chores, trash, laundry, vacuuming, bring in the mail, check on her meds. Do things she cannot do because of her COPD, and that 50 foot long O2 hose. ...She told me off...I realize that it is not her, but the disease process that is progressing. ..Since I live an hour away and go up on the weekends, can't be out her way in the middle of the week, and travel out of town we agreed to a caregiver mid week.
Before that I asked her how the new medicine was working. Some days all she would say was fine. Then admitted. She threw the Aricept away the doctor gave her two weeks ago for confusion. After taking them twice at bedtime, she refused saying it left her feeling groggy. It has been a rough couple weeks. She called last night and apologized for not talking to me and what she has done. I know she can't help it. She has early Alzheimer's and will be going to live with family soon as the new pulmonologist in Idaho gets her records and sets up the 24/7 oxygen requrements at her Grandaughter's where she will live out her days with family near by.
I am going to fly with her and Freedom Kitty to Boise, ID and get her settled.
Getting estimates from movers to take her bedroom furniture, the recliners, couch and her paintings, and family heirlooms, and anything she wants. We have furniture from two houses there, our home in Idyllwild and stuff I never took when I moved out so many years ago. I want to sell her car, but will have it auto transported to Vale, even though I know she will never drive again. Will be putting the house and all the rest of the contents up for sale by the end of this month.
I don't know what else to do, and Kristal Rose wants to take care of Gramma. I can't put my estranged wife of 20 years in assisted living.
So, the candle light and knowing that we all have burdens and cares that we can share helps. Writing it out even helped. I think I should talk her into selling the car. People with Alzheimer's can't drive. Saying this breaks my hear. Peggie ...is going away.