i am deeply moved by this thread and also terrified to post in here.
i am a
femme shark. i am a mixed indigenous queer crip (disabled) femme. i am passionate about decolonizing femme and claiming femininity as a way of liberating myself so that i can work to transform my community. i celebrate queer disabled fat indigenous femme hotness. i break down normative desirability with my body and my breath.
i am a polyamorous femme with a huge heart. i am kind, loving, and warm to just about everyone i meet. i am the one people rely on for a ready smile and a hug. it is easy for me to love people, and i love hard. when i love you i love you to wholeness.
don't mistake my kindness for weakness. i am strong. physically i might not look like much but fuck with people i love and me and my tiny, ineffectual fists will fuck you up. i am dangerous precisely because i have survived so much and i am not afraid to die.
sometimes i am afraid to live, though. i live with ptsd and anxiety that sometimes scares me into silence and inaction. i do my best to have the courage to move forward with my life anyway.
i talk a lot of shit but i'm a femme teddy bear at heart.
i'm an empathic femme. i am hypersensitive to the needs and energies of people around me, and because of this and trauma, i am very conflict avoidant. sometimes it's a curse. sometimes it's a blessing - i would rather communicate through difficulty and change whatever is causing a problem than fight about it.
in my community i am a femme who holds shit down, hooks shit up, and makes shit happen. i dream transformation into being, bring people together, and make possible what people believed was impossible, one moment at a time. i can hold many sometimes contradicting visions at once. i am an educator and a facilitator.
i am a deeply religious and deeply spiritual femme. to me they are intertwined, as are my faith and my social justice work. together they form the reason i get up in the morning (or afternoon, depending on the day).
i am a stone femme. i am a sex worker. stone for me means that my work gives me emotional boundaries around sex...sometimes physical ones, too, depending on the situation. being stone is what allows my empathic, overly expressive femme self to work effectively. it is the only area of my life in which i compartmentalize.
i'm a baby girl and a submissive femme who loves to strap it on and top from time to time. i'm kinky as hell in bed but there's a special place in my heart for sweet vanilla sex. and i consider blow jobs an art form.
i am a sister and an auntie. i cannot be anyone's biological mother but in my community "ma" or "mama" is a term of respect and endearment and it means so much when people call me that. i am an orphan.
i'm a pajama femme. i am the sexiest jeans and t-shirt femme you'll ever meet. this is out of necessity for survival, but i'm beginning to embrace it, even if it makes me feel like an ugly duckling femme sometimes.
i am a homeless, rootless, and family-less femme who is creating home, community, and family for myself. i value what i know of where i come from and i trust that i am whole despite the gaps in my memory and history.