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DapperButch · 07-07-2012, 08:10 AM

It's been 2 years and 8 months and I still want one.

It seems to be worse on vacation. Kind of like since we are doing something special we should be "allowed" to smoke. Since we are away and on vacation it shouldn't "count" or something. We should be given a reprieve from the addiction part of it/hell that will ensue if I pick up again, and just enjoy the cigarette, without consequence. So odd. Magical thinking.

Anyway, it happened this past week when we were away at the beach. I said to tantalizing...."lets buy cigarettes!" (she quit when I did). Of course we didn't, but....

My point is, for me it never changes. If I could "get away with it" (meaning, if smoking didn't cause health problems"), I'd be the first in line!

07-07-2012, 08:10 AM	#11
DapperButch Roadster Guy How Do You Identify?: FTM, Stone Butch Preferred Pronoun?: He Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Northeast Posts: 7,745 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 26,545 Thanked 26,813 Times in 5,772 Posts Rep Power: 21474858	It's been 2 years and 8 months and I still want one. It seems to be worse on vacation. Kind of like since we are doing something special we should be "allowed" to smoke. Since we are away and on vacation it shouldn't "count" or something. We should be given a reprieve from the addiction part of it/hell that will ensue if I pick up again, and just enjoy the cigarette, without consequence. So odd. Magical thinking. Anyway, it happened this past week when we were away at the beach. I said to tantalizing...."lets buy cigarettes!" (she quit when I did). Of course we didn't, but.... My point is, for me it never changes. If I could "get away with it" (meaning, if smoking didn't cause health problems"), I'd be the first in line! __________________ -Dapper Are you educated or indoctrinated?