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macele · 07-07-2012, 08:16 AM

i have an addictive personality. cigarettes, i am totally addicted. it has been a month since i've had one. june 4th, quit date.

the very sad part is it took a heart attack to get me to quit. and a triple bypass (june 5th). i am only 45. but, i'm doing well.

it's been hard. the depression. trying to forgive myself for the heart attack. my family history is heavy with heart disease, but smoking played a bigger part.

i'll always want a cigarette, surely i will lol. but waking up in icu, ... all the pain, being on a ventilator, etc. ... i'll never smoke again. i'll never put another in my mouth. i won't go there.

i hope all of you quit forever. i give you love and support.

07-07-2012, 08:16 AM	#722
macele Member How Do You Identify?: a bold-assed maximus Preferred Pronoun?: she Join Date: Sep 2011 Location: mississippi Posts: 1,066 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 3,178 Thanked 3,230 Times in 847 Posts Rep Power: 21474850	i have an addictive personality. cigarettes, i am totally addicted. it has been a month since i've had one. june 4th, quit date. the very sad part is it took a heart attack to get me to quit. and a triple bypass (june 5th). i am only 45. but, i'm doing well. it's been hard. the depression. trying to forgive myself for the heart attack. my family history is heavy with heart disease, but smoking played a bigger part. i'll always want a cigarette, surely i will lol. but waking up in icu, ... all the pain, being on a ventilator, etc. ... i'll never smoke again. i'll never put another in my mouth. i won't go there. i hope all of you quit forever. i give you love and support.