[Lady Pamela]

Originally Posted by macele

i have an addictive personality. cigarettes, i am totally addicted. it has been a month since i've had one. june 4th, quit date.

the very sad part is it took a heart attack to get me to quit. and a triple bypass (june 5th). i am only 45. but, i'm doing well.

it's been hard. the depression. trying to forgive myself for the heart attack. my family history is heavy with heart disease, but smoking played a bigger part.

i'll always want a cigarette, surely i will lol. but waking up in icu, ... all the pain, being on a ventilator, etc. ... i'll never smoke again. i'll never put another in my mouth. i won't go there.

i hope all of you quit forever. i give you love and support.

I just wanted to say thanks for sharing your srory. And I am so happy you chose to live.

I found out after I stopped that I have emphysima and copd...really is a kick in the ass when you are responsable for your damage huh.

It has taken me months to forgive myself honestly.

Not for me but what I have cheated my children and grandchildren out of.
And possibly what I may be putting them through in years to come.

I am still deciding if relationship ..for me..is going to be a true option...we shall see.

It hurts me to think I may put someone else through rough times due to this.


I so love the honesty on this thread...smiles