I have no problem being in a crowd with one exception - Christmas shoppers are far too intense for me. There have been times I have been in a Mall before Christmas and had to literally run out of the Mall like a wide receiver - dodging and ducking. I have an affectionate nature and enjoy being touched/hugged by people I know and trust ... Like my 72 year old neighbor lady who moved next door a month ago. Sometimes she takes both my hands in hers when she talks to me. That feels really good to me.
I will say I become very rude in lines at the grocery store or places like WalMart if someone behind me bumps me more than once. Everyone gets the benefit of a "bump once" free card. After that, they will notice I have turned into an instant asshole, stand my space, capable of a nudge back. I never say a word. They will find they have no opportunity to look over my shoulder while I pay cashier. Years ago, I was at an ATM withdrawing cash - broad daylight. The fellow behind me was very close on my back. Before I punched in my secret code, I turned around, his face was very close to mine, looked at him hard directly in his eyes and told him to back off. He took 2 steps back and began ranting how he did not need my money because he had much more then me. I thought I would surely end up rolling there on the sidewalk with him, my body had already prepared itself and took over by hardening and bowing up ... adrenaline was flowing through my veins like hot lava. Thankfully nothing happened.
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