[ferret]

If you really knew me, you'd know that I've never given up hope for the one who's my other soulmate, other half, etc. Even though I've set myself up plenty of times for hurt and disappointment, I still hope and desire that for myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm my own worst enemy. No one can hurt me any more or punish me any more than I punish myself.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm more than a name on a screen. I'm more than the words I type, and gee, I actually have feelings.

If you really knew me, you'd know I struggled with depression. I can function okay and not have to struggle with getting up in the morning, but this has been something I've had to deal with since I was a teenager.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I came from an abusive family. My father drank, he was mean when he drank, so I'm sure you can put two and two together. I haven't spoken with him since 1994 (my choice), and I'm better not having that bullshit in my life.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I wished that I was less wound up and uptight pretty much all the time, and people can feel that when they're around me. It's not much fun for them, either.