[Canela]

What is on my mind?

1) Mybiomotherthecougarwhosebfisinthehospitalandmaybe dyingandwhohasdonesomuchdamagetomebothofthemandshe wantsmetoprayforhimandbecauseofmylifestyleamongoth erthingsshouldnotjudgehimrightnow. Whew! What gives her the right to throw me into the mix because he is a horrible person and to manipulate me into doing what she wants tries to remind me of my "shortcomings" and my past. I'm not judging him...I'm mad at her. And I did pray for him no matter what a horrid person I think he is.

2)
WhydoihavetoalwaysbethebiggerpersonjustbecauseIbel ieveinGodIhavefeelingstooandIdontappreciatebeingdr awnintothemiddleofthingsthatdontbelong/haveanythingtodowithme...read situations/relationships/friendships, etc...I'm not your patsy/scapegoat/badguy/sucker/victim/target. Get your shit together, tie up your loose ends and then come find me. Very Important Disclaimer: I may or may not be here when you get back.

3)
Fuck. Yes, I said FUCK.

4)
Oh.

5)
They just started playing my favorite calm me down pep me up music right now and I am finally smiling a little. Carlos Santana, Oye como va....now I wanna dance...anyone wanna step into my crazy right now and dance with me? lol....