[Soft*Silver]

I remember chasing the sun across pastures, on horseback, as it rolled over the great land of home...

I remember our shetland Sheepdog, Tiny Tim, playing for hours with me as a young girl...he was so happy and frisky.

I remember burying my baby dolls. In my mother's garden bed.

I remember hating school. I loved the studies. I hated the cruelty of the other children.

I remember having my first drink. I drank it because I was so unhappy. It became a theme for my drinking.

I remember the day my brother committed suicide. In fact, everything after that became defined by it.

I remember falling in love for the first time. And I remember falling in love each and every time. I wonder if love really does feel like the soft velvet of a rose petal...thats how it feels to me inside...

I remember when my horse snapped her femur in half and had to be put down. I still get nauseous thinking of it..

I remember looking in doorways and smiling

I remember being told the facts of life and thinking sperm jumped over the bellybuttons to get into the woman. My sister didnt tell the facts very well..,

I remember holding my baby for the first time, after giving birth to her...I never saw anything so close to god before..

I remember the physically abusive relationship I was in for 7 years. I remember it was safer for me to be in it with him than it was for me to come out....

I remember coming out...

I remember seeing my mother dead...

I remember watching my father die...

I remember seeing my front yard alit with thousands of dragonflies....

I remember dating a priest....

I remember being destitute

I remember every insult against me. We all do. I can bet that those who delivered it do not...

I remember christmases at my house when my daughter was young. I filled the house with traditions and family and it was the most joyful time of the year...

I remember being a bulimic...

I remember the taste of a good sweet apple in my mouth...god I love fall!

I remember playing bingo with my parents as a young girl, in a bingo hall that was three stories high...

I remember disco dancing...

I remember sanitary napkins and tampons. Thank GOD for menopause!

I remember learning about a new disease called ARC, later AIDS

I remember paying $3000 for my first computer.

I remember my first kiss...

and my last...