[Lady Pamela]

The question is;
Have you met or know a psychopath/sociopath?
The answer is;
Most definately seen that demon. YES!
And sorry if it is to long to read. But this is the very short version in truth.

I was raised in the mormon church with very strict values and ideas.
Which included being married in the temple, to a man.
And truely believed back then that I would go to hell if I did not.

I knew I was attracted to woman at a very early age, but never dared to say anything.
And did not know there was such thing as a lesbian at that time.
So I thought I was truely warped and for sure.

Anyways, fast forward to when I was 20 and walking down the street to go to

Denny's.
A man aproached me stating his sister was lost and told me the description.
Asked me if If I had seen her, and can he walk with me to the coffee shop.
Of course, being helpful I said yes.

This is how he wormed his way in.
And 30 years later, this is my story...condensed version of course.
And leaving alot out that was much to gory .
Also, people like this in many cases, appear tottally normal and even liked by most.
Outside of the home of the persons which they try to dominate that is.

My mamma tried to warn me.
And told me he was evil and mentally unstable.
But of course I did not want to hear that. And thought I knew better.
Silly me!

My nightmare started the very night I got married.
I had never seen any type of behaviour from him this way.
I was getting ready to go to bed. He said come to bed.
I said, I will when I am done getting ready.
He said, I own you and broke all the lights in the house with a frying pan.
I was horribly scared right from the get go.
I took off outside, running down the road in a nighty.
Needless to say, he caught me later.
I was so scared I stayed. And my religion made me even more committed.

No one told me devorce was ok if abuse was present.
Call me dumb but I truely did believe I had made my bed so to speak.

Well, I was physically with him this time 1 year.
He burnt my arms for saying I was going to quit smoking, when I picked up a smoke.
Beat me beyond imagination. Several times.
Made me fear his every word and move.
Stuff I can not mention here as well.
As well as keeping me under threat with a knife the last year.
And swore that if he couldn't have me if I ever left, then he would kill me my daughter

and also the child I now carried as well.

I left anyways..to a battered womans shelter.
But very shortly he found me. And out of fear for my children I went back.
He took me to texas and I had no one there.For another year, this one even worse..I

stayed.

The one thing I thought I could count on is he wasn't mean to the kids.
That is, that I knew of.
All doors had been removed from the rooms in the house so he could see me at all

times.
He used to take a butcher knife and jab it over the shower curtain to freak me out.
He had a knife that stayed on the counter at all times which I was not allowed to

touch. EVER!

I again became pragnant and he slammed me repeatedly in a metal door and then

kicked me with steal toed boots to teach me a lesson. How dare I get pragnant

without his aproval.

The next day, I was taking a shower and got out.
I wittnessed my daughter go flying acrossed the room and him holding her by her feet

out a two story window.
I got her back in and watched her like a hawk.
The next day, as soon as he went to the store...
I called my mom who called a social worker of sorts.
She said whatever he has acused me of doing, is what he is planning.
OMG! He acused me of having someone after him to kill him amoungst other things.
I RAN TO THE CLOSEST CHURCH!
It was a Sunday and they were all in meeting...miricles do happen I tell you.
They all pulled money out..enough to get me and the kids back to Utah...and helped

see us off.

So I get to Utah and the battered womans shelter sent me to hospital and saved my

baby.

It was quite awhile after...I started having issues.
Things missing in my house. Food eaten.
Calls that couldn't be tracked to a sex line.
I was on the phone to the telephone operater and there was a pause while she

researched stuff.
When she came back on the line and I was telling her no one was home during the

time of the calls..A mans voice came of the line and said," Fuck You!"
The operater said," Ma'am get out of your home now..that is coming from within your

home!"
This is but 1 thing that happened after I left him.

He stalked me seriously hard for 17 years.
He lived in my attick..which I proved.
He lived in a crawl space in my home which was eventually found.
He chisseled my chimney and basement walls that were brick to eneter my home.
And I found out he had molested my daughter all that time.

He cut up my sons bed.
He lefts hurt animals in the dryer.
He left his type of knife as a calling card of many ocassions. ETC ETC ETC

You get the point.

So yes...I was married to a paranoid socialpath with delusional episodes they said.
The worst kind!

Ok sorry for the book...I just wanted to touch on how extremely dangerious they can

be.
And tell anyone who may be in one to seek help now.

Sorry if I was to graphic..I tried to leave out the worst stuff.
And still make my point!