Ugh. Don't know where to start - especially because I need to study. But, so pissed off at my ex. I know - once you're an ex, no expectations. But I phoned her last week to come and stay with me for a couple of weeks. My blood pressure was not good (too high) and I was freaking out because the doctor said that the xray showed my heart to be a little enlarged. Not even mildly, just slightly (I think that was supposed to make me feel better), but still ... pretty bloody scary.
I got three different delays from my ex.
Haven't heard from her since last Saturday.
Phoned her today. Gave me another excuse.
I provided the only income for the best part of three years. She worked for one month. During that time I paid for rent, living expenses, made sure she always had cash in her wallet, put up with her bad moods, put up with no sex, put up with little conversation, put up with so much. Anything we did I paid for.
I'm trying really hard not to let it get to me - trying to get the blood pressure down and I need to focus on my studies. But still ...
I'm really
