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morningstar55 · 08-28-2012, 08:16 AM

been going over the postings on the age and relationships topic...
im 57....
eveyone in my family have been on a long term relationship ... except me.. why?? what is my problem???
last time I gave my heart away and trust 200% .. i was soo soo content.happy , focusing on a home. a life with my other half ... well that got blown out of the water... some people just sometimes think the grass might be greener on the other side of the fence with no thoughts on how it may affect there partner i guess. *sigh* ....... that was the last time i gave my self to someone soo deeply. Im scared to go thru that again....
I tried having a couple more relationships after that but it has not been the same and it never will ....
im trying to get use to the idea of just dating now and then ... and dont get to serious with anyone anymore. at out age we are all set in our own ways ... although if i could just see someone steady ... would be nice.
I am a 1 person kinda girl... i am loyal , honest. down to earth , love life . can be a jokester.....
i was told by an X ... reason why i am alone is cause i only think of myself... hmmmm i dont get that.
all the friggin sacrafices i have made and still make... renting my bedroom out at home.. to a friend of my daughters cuz he was kickd out of his home ... when he came out to his family he was gay. driving the truck im hardly ever there anyways
whn i go home i sleep in the living room for now.. or my truck.
helping a lady out few yrs bk... that was homeless... living out of her car.
giving paintings away to friends and such... painting special post cards and sending them off... cuz i like giving out smiles.

id like to move... for 5 yrs now ... been planing on NC near Danville VA .. there i can get bk to messing with the horses and have thoughts of having a artist workshop biz as my retirement income...
i have a cousin whom is a professor in albany NY and helps write grant letters all the time...... soo this is going to take a lil time i guess...
mean while....... i will keep on trucking and doing my art when i can.
thats my story and im ahh sticking to it. hehe

08-28-2012, 08:16 AM	#2964
morningstar55 Senior Member How Do You Identify?: femme,she Preferred Pronoun?: she,her, Relationship Status: very single Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: western NY Posts: 3,809 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 5,280 Thanked 4,240 Times in 1,845 Posts Rep Power: 21474855	been going over the postings on the age and relationships topic... im 57.... eveyone in my family have been on a long term relationship ... except me.. why?? what is my problem??? last time I gave my heart away and trust 200% .. i was soo soo content.happy , focusing on a home. a life with my other half ... well that got blown out of the water... some people just sometimes think the grass might be greener on the other side of the fence with no thoughts on how it may affect there partner i guess. sigh ....... that was the last time i gave my self to someone soo deeply. Im scared to go thru that again.... I tried having a couple more relationships after that but it has not been the same and it never will .... im trying to get use to the idea of just dating now and then ... and dont get to serious with anyone anymore. at out age we are all set in our own ways ... although if i could just see someone steady ... would be nice. I am a 1 person kinda girl... i am loyal , honest. down to earth , love life . can be a jokester..... i was told by an X ... reason why i am alone is cause i only think of myself... hmmmm i dont get that. all the friggin sacrafices i have made and still make... renting my bedroom out at home.. to a friend of my daughters cuz he was kickd out of his home ... when he came out to his family he was gay. driving the truck im hardly ever there anyways whn i go home i sleep in the living room for now.. or my truck. helping a lady out few yrs bk... that was homeless... living out of her car. giving paintings away to friends and such... painting special post cards and sending them off... cuz i like giving out smiles. id like to move... for 5 yrs now ... been planing on NC near Danville VA .. there i can get bk to messing with the horses and have thoughts of having a artist workshop biz as my retirement income... i have a cousin whom is a professor in albany NY and helps write grant letters all the time...... soo this is going to take a lil time i guess... mean while....... i will keep on trucking and doing my art when i can. thats my story and im ahh sticking to it. hehe __________________ -------------------------------------------- life is to short to wake up in the morning with regrets so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who dont, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance take it... if it changes your life let it.