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Recently I have begun to have some serious health issues...and with having had major surg last december for colon cancer...these concerned me enough to see a GI surgeon recommended by my oncologist's office.
So, last Friday, I saw this "person"...after a resident came in to take my history, this "surgeon" walked in in his expensive suit, sat on the stool..looked at me..grinned and said" I can tell you why you had colon cancer, are having rectal bleeding now, and you have joint pain, and the reason you walk with that limp...is you are "morbidly obese" and I can fix all of that, with a gastric bypass". Your hernia I can't fix because you are so "big" that it will rupture again, and repeatedly, UNTIL you let me do a bypass on you....that is your only option...my jaw was on the floor....he wasn't even interested in asking me any of my history, never even looked at my hernia, and was there for less than 10 minutes...he gave me a brochure for the gastric bypass...and walked out.
The student in the room....his face was the color of a firetruck...he was jaw dropped, too...and he just looked at me sheepishly!
I walk with a limp because of a tragic motorcycle accident.
I had colon cancer....because who knows why...maybe genetically predisposed?
I have a hernia because the muscle was cut laterally...across the grain...and when was sutured, you can't suture the stringy strands...only the tendons and ligaments, so THAT is why I have a hernia.
I am well aware of how "big" I am...and I am well aware of the fact I also have lost 50 lbs. since last November...
and most importantly, I am well aware I have a HUGE kind, loving, and forgiving heart...and I own my fatness!
but him...he is just an ass..for which there is NO excuse!!!
Anyway, I am thick skinned and don't let asshats get to me..and NO I am NOT going to have a gastric bypass...I do NOT need to add to my woes, you know?
I rather be able to admire beautiful, big women.....like me....<wink>