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Originally Posted by CharmingButch25

As far back as I can remeber which is about 7 I have had horrible terrifying dreams,

The main one is a very recurant dream where I am at the beach, usually with a family member or members, most times either my grandparents (who both passed years ago) or my mom, one minute we are sitting at the beach, the next huge massive waves come running after us and we cant escape,like a tsunami,but ive never ever experienced a tsunami nor have I ever had a bad experience at the beach, all the sand gets wipped away and we are wiped out into the waves,I always see their dead bodies floating and that of others(strangers) but I am alive under water swimming, its like I cant die, and the same song plays every time I have the dream Sara Mclaughlin Arms of an Angel, I usually wake up scared that I actually lost the person(s) in the dream.

I have nightmares most nights, so i find it easier to just not sleep for many hours which definatly wears on the body but I am used to it by now, I had counceling when I was younger from age 7-18 and they never did figure out why or stop or help the nightmares,they vary but a lot of them end up with me being killed, or chased,or more recently the woman I was in love with kept dying , either in a plane crash or she was being shot and raped and tortured, she however left me, but when she was around the nightmares werent as bad, I guess I felt safe, or I usually feel safe when I have a partner I trust in the bed with me, they dont occur as often as usual,

Anyway sorry for going on so much

So this entry took me some time to come back to... on several attempts. The one about the beach drew in much of my interest. It reminded me of a quote I once heard from Bruce Lee - "Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water. If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow or it can crash. Be water my friend." The idea that the waves in your dream are huge and massive gives me a feel that there is something in your life that is deep seeded and overwhelming... it floods you. I get that because you seem to be the only one alive and underwater swimming. Almost like you're trapped. Not able to surface? The song you hear, again to me, is a way of an attempted comfort, to let you feel that you are being watched over and safe. I'm getting that it's not so much a death of the others but something you need to bring to life from within yourself.

It is often said that when one dreams of death, it usually represents life/birth. This can also mean life and birth of self... newness from within.