[Kenna]

how good it feels ... happy and relieved ... to purge so much stuff that i hadn't touched in a year.. to see BUNCHES of empty boxes (some I reused for kitchen glass stuff)... how good it feels to see clean, uncluttered floor in my spare room...to feel those "ugly feelings of memory boxes" get released as I process them and dispose of them as I purge the physical clutter and mental clutter.. how I know when I get set up in my next place that unpacking will be less work/less clutter because of all the work I've done now... how good it feels to be ready to make changes in how I keep things in the future (like be more organized with my papers and important things, rather than letting it build up)... how good it feels to NOT live in a house like my mother kept (where the kitchen was so awful that you couldn't get to the appliances or sink because of all the trash)..my house might be cluttered on times, but never the stressful mountains of trash my mother couldn't let go of..

right now, the amount of work I need to do is stressful and the level of pain in overwhelming ... but I am making progress ...

I've used this as a self discovery time.. a place of bad mental space to transitioning to positive decision to make changes ...

... Now.. I am ready for a walk in the apple orchard and then next spring in the cherry tree groves in D.C.