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Originally Posted by lusciouskiwi
Probably cooking.
What's the real you haven't lost weight if you need to do so?
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because it's something i'd rather hate myself for than do anything about. it's weird too because i'm not lazy. i'm physically active and i like losing weight when it does happen. but the last 5 or 6 years or so i've been in a kind of strange survival mode and it's really ramped up my obsession/addiction to food. there are days when i wonder just how long i think i'll be given the chance to abuse myself this way before there's a significant price to pay. dont get me wrong. i'm not a thinworshiper and i am glad of that. to be honest, i've never been even close to thin but i dont want to be and that's not sour grapes either. it's acknowledging that i think beauty is present in sizes other than 0/2 and that i'm always going to be an 18/20. my whole family is big people so i'm gonna be a big people too. just facts. but i'd prefer to be less big. not skinny. just less big --- because i actually want to be.
tell me about someone you most admire.