[LoyalWolfsBlade]

With the holidays approaching and after a day spent in the hospital family is on my mind. I have always been family oriented. I was always taught family came first and as the eldest that was how I lived my 45 years. I came back to my home town in Feb of this year and see my bio-family only when they choose, want something from me, or need something from me that only I can provide. Oh let's not forget to get in my face about my sexuality. Yet I still hold out hope that it will change. That it will at least go back to the way it was when my grandmother was alive and we had holiday family dinners together. Instead of spending them alone. My grandmother had 12 children and each of those had at least 5 adn each of those at least 5 we are in our 7th generation here so I have a very large extended family here that supposedly believes in family first blood first yet I know I will be spending the upcoming holidays alone or with strangers. Okay done with my humbug thoughts.