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Originally Posted by SomethingBeautiful

There's so much on my mind. So much. Family, a wonderful friend, my life. My love - if I'm even able to keep something so important in my life without fucking it up. I just don't know. I have so many emotions and I want them to come out the right way. *Plays with fingertips* I've never really been one to be open about my thought process but somedays I wish I could just have a nice warm cup of coffee and enjoy an online conversation and feel connected again. I lost or misplaced a big chunk of who I am at my core for months because of new experiences and I'm scared the damage I caused can't be healed. I don;t know if anyone knows what that's like. I have hope. I'll stay and do the best I can at being the person I know the people I care for are missing. I just want somebody to take my hand and tell me they understand and that I'll always have that. Maybe I need too much.
Maybe I should stop thinking.

You're not alone, I promise. I've been where you are right now and it will make sense, just give it time.
I may be far away, but if you ever do need that chat, I'm always around.
We all need someone to talk to, and I do know how difficult it is, it's taken the patience of my good friends to help me be able to open up, so it is possible, okay?
Keep your chin up, you're in the right place here to get help and advice, lots of good people on this site and we've all been there.